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what happens, when one fine day... you decide to die?

and with a flick of few switches, a click of few options... there you are, dead!!

thought it would be scary?? trust me, it was... a little! BUT, then the exhilaration of freedom... freedom from being wired, freedom from a compulsion of an obligation... obligation to keep on - keeping on

no white light or nirvana here... just your regular day... everythings same, the status quo maintained... a re-iteration of the fact that one as an individual is quite so inconsequential except to the self... umm, maybe!

a tinge of nostalgia, which the seasons would take care of.. decades of "important" data from official and loved ones... all gone, destroyed in one go, in cold blood ... freeing up some more hard drive somewhere... email ids, IMs, social networking presence... all poof!

all that remains is this space, in some kind of suspended annihilation... but the process has begun, my friend... how long the suspension lasts? would there be new planets to begin afresh? or is this a march towards the end, finally? who knows... for now, its a cliched who cares too...

maybe its not my time go... yet... will "die (completely) just another day", for now...


Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black...
But the memory remains...

am lulled to sleep with Marianne Faithfull's distant lilt...


p.s: i possibly didn't want to.... but then what you need is incongruent quite sometimes with what you want!

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