nights like tonight...

Tonight I feel like a piece sky blue ribbon caught in a snarl of twigs. Unraveled, scattered, tired. My heart beating in my temples. Trying to learn what recuperating means, as I realize that instead of rest I’ve been holding everything else together these past few days. Doing nothing. Hard not to.

I haven’t learned yet how to protect my energy without being selfish. How to take care of myself without hoarding my time. Is there a way to balance this? The filament feels so flimsy between me and the world tonight. The sky is ashy and gray.


I press my palms to my face. My heart feels like a small bird caught in the high wires. Tonight, optimism is ash. I am on my knees.

Even after the fire’s heat is evident and my face is flushed I linger, kneeling, whispering a silent prayer. Wind keeps whistling. Night gathers in the wet branches of trees beyond the glass. Tonight there is no chin-up positive attitude. No sunny outlook. Just pure exhaustion and the simple slim hope that tomorrow will be better than today.

CpRyt@NeerS

12 comments:

Kafo said...

okay what is going on
it seems like u dropped off the radar for a minute

hope all is well

about the post
balancing it all
hmmm i don't know i struggle with that daily

aint_no_saint said...

hey
ma bak! :)
wil giv ur blog a read soon
till then
tc

aint_no_saint said...

wat i read ws a mirror reflection of wt i wrote and felt a few years ago.. hv bn a free bird ever since..
and i hope d same happns to u.and it wil for sure
Cheers hon:)

Trekker said...

Felt that a few days back, but then after that deep sadness and flimsy hope, i was happy again. It was like energizing after enervating myself. did i make sense.

and it wasnt something that made me ok, it was just the need of my spirit i guess, after the low tide, it automatically reached the high before balancing itself.

Hip Grandma said...

Just dropped to say hi1felt nostalgic and checked on old blogger friends.

Ashwadhy said...
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Ashwadhy said...

A very fresh piece!

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Lyrically speaking said...

wow,very cool reading this post,it's been awhile, hope all is well

Casperbaba said...

Hey neers!
how have you been...?
long time...
felt like visiting my old frnz after a long time...

I wodn't comment on this post of urs.. but yes refreshing to read ur words....

Jello said...
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Jello said...

hey there,
omg - congrats!!!
where have you been hiding? And now I find out that you're in Ireland - LOL
Anyhow, drop me a private email when you get a chance and catchup - tell me all about urs so far...

Φ said...

What cannot kill you makes you stronger!

Great blog template.. answer to your question (in this post) is there in your blog design.

Change the pluck not the guitar! :)